Really?

This is definitely a personal post but since this is our family journal I wanted to document what is going on with our lives. I've had this pain in my abdomen for about a year; it comes and goes so I didn't think much of it. Well I finally went to the doctor to figure out what this pain was and the visit kind of turned our day upside down(in a good way).
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HISTORY:
When I had Clint during the C-section my doctor was so shocked at how thin my uterus was. He told us that if we weren't positive we needed to have more kids then we really probably shouldn't. Even at that he said we could probably only have 1 more if we insisted on more kids. He said if it were his wife he would say they were done, so we took that as strong advice that we should probably be grateful for the 2 great kids we have and be done. We somewhat reluctantly accepted our fate and have dabbled with thoughts of adoption.
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So back to the doctors visit today. Turns out he thinks the pain is endometriosis (as a result from the C-section). To take care of it they do a minor surgery and remove it. The doctor says, "So if you're going to be having another baby soon then we'll just take care of it when we do your C-section." My doc. doesn't remember patient history very well so I remind him of the what happened during my last C-section and what was said afterward. He then said, "Well I wouldn't let that stop you if you really want to have another child. We'll just watch you very closely and if you have any type of contraction you'll just need to get to a hospital immediately." What????? So did he just say what I think he said? Before he was pretty freaked out and had said, "It's not a good idea to have anoter baby, and I don't say that to too many people because I don't feel like it's my place to decide how many children a woman has." Now he's saying we shouldn't let it stop us. He said the risk is great but the chance isn't super high. Hmmmm. I think Darryl was so excited given his comment when I went to pick up the boys at his work. But he insisted I make the decision. I told him I won't be the only one deciding this because then if I choose to have the baby I won't be able to say to him, "You wanted to have this baby so you have to take care of it too." :) In the end I think we'll try to have another child. I have such a hard time accepting the thoughts of never being pregnant again, and holding my newborn again. Another hard thought to swallow is to know that my boys will be out of our home and we would be empty-nesters in 15 years. With them so close in age it will be like all are kids are suddenly gone. I know that a third child would probably really push me over the stress-level edge, but part of me feels like it is just one of those things that you'll adjust to as you just take it one day at a time.